“Like wildflowers; you must allow yourself to grow in all the places people never thought you would.” – E.V.
Last year, my wonderful mother challenged me to pick a word for the New Year, rather than my usual endless list of to-dos and tedious goals. It was challenging to set my mind in one direction. What was I looking for in the new year? What changes did I want to make? What opportunities? What path did I want to lead myself down? A few things I knew for certain: I want to plant a garden, I want to learn more about myself, and I want to build my career and business. So, I chose the word GROWTH. And a year of growth it has been. (See my original post about Growth)
Let me start by letting you know I did not accomplish all of my goals or hopes and dreams for 2015. Some feel like they would get started, and fall, and I would continuously pick them back up again. Some lost interest in me, or I lost interest in it. Some things failed to be a priority. The biggest challenge of the year was my garden. I finally got the beds replanted, the seeds planted, and the irrigation in place. I rejoiced when little specks of green began emerging from the soil I so carefully placed. You can even check out my Instagram; I was overjoyed. Then, my 2-year-old lab experienced his own version of joy: digging in the fresh dirt and compost, thus ruining my beautiful new seedlings. I was crushed, but I continued on. My father-in-law and handy husband built me a fence and a gate to keep the dogs away from the side yard. I replanted my seeds, replaced my ruined irrigation lines, and was ready to watch my vegetables grow. However, in building this fence, we thought it was a perfect opportunity to allow the chickens more roaming throughout their side yard, out of the confines of their coop. It turns out; chickens also enjoy destroying my garden. At this time, it was too late to replant any seeds for 2015. I was crushed, momentarily. Rather than look back at my goals I didn’t meet last year and feel guilty about not accomplishing them, I am finding a new perspective. I have the opportunity now to see what on that list is truly important to me. What goals will I be sure to tackle in 2016? What goals or dreams lack the same drive they had last year? It’s a chance to refine my list, clear what is not working for me, polish those dreams that still hold a place in my heart, and move the f*** on.
More importantly, it allowed me the chance to truly relish in all the things I did accomplish and all of the dreams I discovered throughout the year that I never would have dreamed to place on my visual board. I, indeed, grew.
BUSINESS & CAREER
I’m glad I enjoy being busy because if my business and career continue to develop at the same rate as 2015, I am in for quite a ride. I have been completely torn about my desk job for the last couple of years, working as an admin for a great community. It didn’t fulfill me or give me a reason to wake up in the morning or give me a since of belonging. It was a paycheck, mostly to pay back my college loans. However, this year an opportunity came up for me to keep my job working for a great company and move into a role I absolutely love. It is a job that excites me every morning, allows me the space to connect with others, and learn more about myself. It is one of those goals I had no idea meant so much to me until the opportunity presented itself and I jumped right in. I am loving it!
I am also pleased to say that both of my side jobs are growing too. I started teaching yoga in May this year and it is amazing. I am building a following, my students are transforming before my eyes, and I am even having to turn down yoga opportunities as demands are growing. It is phenomenal. Plus, my small business with Sierra, Inspired by Sisters is doing wonderfully. We are growing at a pace that is manageable, but challenging. We are finally bringing home some small paychecks, our reputation in our little town is growing, and we continue to have top rated reviews. I cannot be more grateful for the people who are supporting my dreams. I am seriously on a high right now just thinking about how far we have come.
I am connected with some phenomenal people this year. I am learning that there are so many different kinds of people, different kinds of friends, different kinds of relationships to be had. I am also learning that some people click with me better than others, and the crazy people-pleaser that is me has accepted that I do not need to keep all my friendships and it is not my responsibility to encourage relationships that do not seem to be healthy. I have met so many amazing people. I am incredibly thankful for connecting with a fellow YTT student, Jo, during our classes. He has introduced me to a different culture, full of acceptance and some of the warmest souls you will ever meet. Through him, I have met Vanessa, who is one of those friends you connect with right away and it feels like they have always been a part of you, even if you only met them 10 minutes ago. I love that they have got me out of my comfort zone, out into the world seeking adventure, but also turning inward and exploring within myself.
I am also very grateful that my relationship with my husband continues to grow. It is always a challenge when two people come together, trying to merge two paths that do not intertwine very easily. It is a daily struggle to allow myself growth, allow my husband growth, and remember to come back together at the end of each day and grow together. We are starting to get the hang of it!
I have a very strong belief that we should all be growing, changing, evolving all the time, throughout the entirety of our life time. I am pleased to say I witnessed a year of DAILY growth. I am serious. I found something new about myself constantly this past year. It really made me question whether I was growing at a more substantial rate than normal or if I was just so conscious about it that I noticed more than I normally would have. Maybe it is a combination of both. I learned to be kinder with myself. I learned that I cannot always get everything that I want to get done accomplished and that it is vital that I keep my perspective clear, rather than my to-do list. I have learned that I have a heart thirsty for adventure, eager to connect with new cultures, to engage with a vast variety of spirits. I have learned to be aware of my faults, not so I can mock them, but so I can eventually turn them into my strengths.
I am more connected than I have ever been with myself. That is the best change I have experienced for all of 2015. I cannot even put the feeling into words.
With that being said, I am very eager to see what the new year brings me. I am eager to share my word for the new year. I am eager to continue on the path with new friends, new dreams, new adventures. My goal is to share this with you something this week, but who knows where I will be guided…
Thank you all for helping me GROW in 2015.
Namaste, Taryn xoxo